I've killed mice before. I've layed traps out, but my daddy, brother or braver sister would always take them out to the trash.
I put a sticky mouce trap out earlier tonight. I caught the baby mouse while I was typing on my labtop. I felt bad. I feel bad. The baby mouse has been squeeking since it got trapped. I feel like a murderer. I hate mice in our home, but I hate even more the idea of torturing this animal, rodent, what have you.
I looked up advice on the internet to help peel safely the mouse from the sticky glue but nothing will work according to the research. The glue is there to trap and kill.
The mouse I caught is trying tiredlessly to free itself from the glue. I pulled it up close to me to see if I could get it free but it's tiny feet are stuck. I could see its tiny heart beat.
I kinda feel like an animal murderer even though it's this rodent that my family has been trying to catch.
Next time I'll remember to NOT get the sticky glues. The little mice get tortured for hours if stuck in a trap. Ugh...I can still here it peep!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
I'm back with fire
The last time that I posted to this blog was over a year ago. I'm sure no one has missed me. Especially the rude person who told me that I'm a whiny bitch in their anonymous comments. Whatever. I'm me. If you don't like me, don't read me or my stories.
Many events have happened since my last post in January. I am no longer with "le petit escargot" and living in a long-distance relationship. I'm actually very happy. In Hawaii. With my family. With my friends. Single and 26. And where I belong. For right now.
I have learned the past year and a half that it doesn't matter if you're in a foreign country or living life in your home state, most of the time everyone is half a dictionary short of fluent...of anything. We're all half fluent about the men/women we date, the jobs we take and the families we try to make. Language has always been a love of mine and the past year and a half since my father died, I've noticed that language isn't just about the letters or sounds you put together to communicate something to another person, it's also about the unique language that you live your life by - the syntax of specific moments that pull it together and create our futures, our stories, in our own tongue.
That is why I decided to kick this blog back into gear. I find myself half a dictionary short of where I want to be all the time, and those moments will make for great stories and poetry.
Many events have happened since my last post in January. I am no longer with "le petit escargot" and living in a long-distance relationship. I'm actually very happy. In Hawaii. With my family. With my friends. Single and 26. And where I belong. For right now.
I have learned the past year and a half that it doesn't matter if you're in a foreign country or living life in your home state, most of the time everyone is half a dictionary short of fluent...of anything. We're all half fluent about the men/women we date, the jobs we take and the families we try to make. Language has always been a love of mine and the past year and a half since my father died, I've noticed that language isn't just about the letters or sounds you put together to communicate something to another person, it's also about the unique language that you live your life by - the syntax of specific moments that pull it together and create our futures, our stories, in our own tongue.
That is why I decided to kick this blog back into gear. I find myself half a dictionary short of where I want to be all the time, and those moments will make for great stories and poetry.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Fun things to do with your T-mobile Shadow
If you are like me, you've probably been searching every corner of the Internet for cool tips and application for your T-Mobile Shadow. It's time consuming and frustrating when you can't find a website that lists all the fun things to do with your Shadow. Well, now you do. The following are some of the cool things you can do with you T-mobile Shadow. I have most of them on my phone and have had real success with them. Have fun!!1.) Skype mobile: You don't need to log onto to your PC anymore since Skype has developed a program for Smartphones and Window Mobile phones. It's so much more convenient to call your friends or significant others in another country from your cell phone! You will be charged on your Skype credit if you make outgoing phone calls (so make sure you buy credit before using your phone) and you will be using your regular phone minutes. You can also receives calls to your cell phone via Skype. So, you would still be using the computer-to-computer function and not get charged anything!! You can download the program from your phone by using IE or downloading the program to your computer and than syncing it to your Shadow. It's best to use Skype if you have a full data plan. You will be charged on your T-mobile bill for using the Internet. Here's how you do it from your phone with a good wifi connection (go to comm manager and click on wifi):
- Go to the Skype mobile website. Or Type in skype.com in the browser on your phone.
- Click on download skype for your Smartphone application -- NOT the Windows Mobile.
- Follow the instructions! I had a bit of trouble in the beginning because my phone would always stop downloading. I think the best way would be to save the .cab file to your documents and than opening that to run the Skype program. Or by doing it by downloading to your PC and then Activesyncing the .cab file to your phone documents.
- Once Skype mobile has been downloaded it will change your home screen to a Skype screen. Don't freak out! If you don't want Skype as your home screen, go to the Home Screen in your settings and change it back to what you had originally. You can always open the Skype program to use it.
3.) GoogleMap Mobile: You can see where traffic congestion is in real-time in over 30 cities, receive detailed directions, find addresses, interactive maps, and satellite view. The only problem? GoogleMap is is unable to locate some cities (such as those in Hawaii or Alaska) automatically via satellite. So, you're going to have enter city information all the time.
Downloads you must pay for:
4.) Handango: At Hangango you can download games and applications to make your phone work the way you want it to. The applications cost anywhere from $10 - $30. Handango has a powerful Home Screen plug-in that allows you to view your upcoming appointments and tasks directly on your Home Screen (SBSH Facade 1.3). With eWallet you can put your passwords, credit cards, and all your important information in a safe and encrypted electronic wallet. According to the Handango website, it is the top-rated software to protect your secure data. Handango has a bunch of downloads that can enhance the performance of your Shadow. I haven't personally downloaded anything because I haven't seen anything that I really, really need. However, I did find a faux Weight Watchers journal for mobile phones that I really wanted to buy. Unfortunately, it's not compatible with the Shadow yet=(
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Obsessing over an obsession
You know that your curiosity is turning to pure, ungratifying spying (aka stalking) when you stay up till 2 am to wait for your slower-than-a-tortoise laptop to download le petit escargot's New Year's Eve festivities pictures from his friends website, and than, to top it off, analyze every single angle of the photos and wonder, "Why the hell is milibitches legs lying leisurely on my my boyfriends thighs? And, why are they sitting so close to each other? And, why the hell does she have to look so damn cute in all these photos?
Yes, y'all. My trust for le petit escargot has withered down to the size of the tiny black stubble on my legs. But whats worse is that my paranoia has ballooned to where it can't even take a breath anymore.
I never liked milibitch much anyway. She's one of his friends, the only single one of their little "group" mind you. The first couple times I spent time with her at dinner parties she would ask me ridiculously personal and prying questions. You know, the type of question that makes her seem to be nice and intrigued by you, but really deep down, she's only asking them to make you feel like you're beneath her. Some of her annoying questions:
milibitch: "So, you're not working, right? So, what to you do all day? (laugh) Nothing."
me (in my head): "What do you think I'm doing? I'm on freaking vacation."
A WEEK LATER:
milibitch: "Teema, did you find a job yet? Why are you tired? You don't do anything during the day. We, the people who work, should be tired. Not you."
me (in my head): "The next time she brings up myself doing nothing all day, I'm gonna..."
ON A DIFFERENT SUBJECT:
milibitch (in front of everyone at the table after I poured myself another glass of wine): "Oh, Teema. You drink more!?
me (in my head while reaching for another cigarette): "Gawd!! Can't this chick lay off me."
milibitch: "And, you smoke more!! Do you smoke like that all day?" (with a disapproving nod)
me (in my head): "I'll drink the entire bottle of wine and puff on 5 cigarettes just to get your voice out my head."
There's a brief description of milibitch, the thorn in my long-distance relationship. I'm feeling so insecure and it's driving my crazy!! I know that le petit escargot loves me and not her, but it's so hard to deal with this when I'm seeing pictures of them acting like a couple or hearing about them getting a drink -- oh, this is a good.
Apparently, milibitch and her friend went to a movie, then called mon petit escargot to meet them at a bar near his house for drinks. However, milibitches friend didn't stay for drinks and went home. So, what we have here is: 2 +1 = 3 - 1 = 2 people having a drink, which seems peculiarly like a set-up date. Then, two days later le petit escargot tells me that he's going to have dinner at his friends B's house, the boyfriend of milibitch's friend, so we may not be able to talk that night. The next day I learn that milibitch was there, too. How quaint! A friendly dinner of four. A double-freaking dinner date!
This whole situation is driving me crazy! I want to be able to trust him, but I don't know how I can cope with this when every other day it seems like his friends are trying to set them up and rooting for them to get together.
Trust issues. I'm way past that. I'm at the point where I'm waiting for new pictures to be posted so that a really incriminating one will give me a reason to blow up at him.
Any advice from those of you who have had a LDR?
Yes, y'all. My trust for le petit escargot has withered down to the size of the tiny black stubble on my legs. But whats worse is that my paranoia has ballooned to where it can't even take a breath anymore.
I never liked milibitch much anyway. She's one of his friends, the only single one of their little "group" mind you. The first couple times I spent time with her at dinner parties she would ask me ridiculously personal and prying questions. You know, the type of question that makes her seem to be nice and intrigued by you, but really deep down, she's only asking them to make you feel like you're beneath her. Some of her annoying questions:
milibitch: "So, you're not working, right? So, what to you do all day? (laugh) Nothing."
me (in my head): "What do you think I'm doing? I'm on freaking vacation."
A WEEK LATER:
milibitch: "Teema, did you find a job yet? Why are you tired? You don't do anything during the day. We, the people who work, should be tired. Not you."
me (in my head): "The next time she brings up myself doing nothing all day, I'm gonna..."
ON A DIFFERENT SUBJECT:
milibitch (in front of everyone at the table after I poured myself another glass of wine): "Oh, Teema. You drink more!?
me (in my head while reaching for another cigarette): "Gawd!! Can't this chick lay off me."
milibitch: "And, you smoke more!! Do you smoke like that all day?" (with a disapproving nod)
me (in my head): "I'll drink the entire bottle of wine and puff on 5 cigarettes just to get your voice out my head."
There's a brief description of milibitch, the thorn in my long-distance relationship. I'm feeling so insecure and it's driving my crazy!! I know that le petit escargot loves me and not her, but it's so hard to deal with this when I'm seeing pictures of them acting like a couple or hearing about them getting a drink -- oh, this is a good.
Apparently, milibitch and her friend went to a movie, then called mon petit escargot to meet them at a bar near his house for drinks. However, milibitches friend didn't stay for drinks and went home. So, what we have here is: 2 +1 = 3 - 1 = 2 people having a drink, which seems peculiarly like a set-up date. Then, two days later le petit escargot tells me that he's going to have dinner at his friends B's house, the boyfriend of milibitch's friend, so we may not be able to talk that night. The next day I learn that milibitch was there, too. How quaint! A friendly dinner of four. A double-freaking dinner date!
This whole situation is driving me crazy! I want to be able to trust him, but I don't know how I can cope with this when every other day it seems like his friends are trying to set them up and rooting for them to get together.
Trust issues. I'm way past that. I'm at the point where I'm waiting for new pictures to be posted so that a really incriminating one will give me a reason to blow up at him.
Any advice from those of you who have had a LDR?
Monday, December 31, 2007
How to survive a long-distance relationship during the holidays
DON'T imagine your significant other drinking way too much wine and champagne and laying a big wet one on the only single girl/guy at the New Year's Eve party.
DON'T get upset when your hunny didn't call at midnight his/her time the way you all had agreed you were going to do the day before.
DON'T send him/her a sarcastic text message saying how he/she must have been too busy to call you when the New Year rolled in.
DON'T get all paranoid and swear to yourself that you're going to have a blast at your New Years Eve party, not call him/her and make out with a hottie -- because if he's/she's doing what you think he's/she's doing, then you can do it too...only better.
DON'T obsess about the New Year's Party he's/she's attending with all his/her friends and that annoying single woman/man friend you keep hearing about, who you think is on the prowl to snatch away your man/woman.
DON'T let your paranoia consume you and make you write a blog post about surviving a long distance relationship.
So, what you should do is...
DO send him/her sweet text messages that wishes him/her a BONNE ANNEE and tell him/her that you hope he/she is having a great time at his/her New Year's Eve party.
DO trust him/her and enjoy the New Year festivities.
Finally...
DO try to stay calm and not overreact...if you're still obsessing, keep the bottle of champagne very close to you! Just don't drunk dial or answer his phone calls if you're feeling like spilling all your frustrations!!
BONNE ANNEE, HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAU'OLI MAKAHIKI HOU!!
DON'T get upset when your hunny didn't call at midnight his/her time the way you all had agreed you were going to do the day before.
DON'T send him/her a sarcastic text message saying how he/she must have been too busy to call you when the New Year rolled in.
DON'T get all paranoid and swear to yourself that you're going to have a blast at your New Years Eve party, not call him/her and make out with a hottie -- because if he's/she's doing what you think he's/she's doing, then you can do it too...only better.
DON'T obsess about the New Year's Party he's/she's attending with all his/her friends and that annoying single woman/man friend you keep hearing about, who you think is on the prowl to snatch away your man/woman.
DON'T let your paranoia consume you and make you write a blog post about surviving a long distance relationship.
So, what you should do is...
DO send him/her sweet text messages that wishes him/her a BONNE ANNEE and tell him/her that you hope he/she is having a great time at his/her New Year's Eve party.
DO trust him/her and enjoy the New Year festivities.
Finally...
DO try to stay calm and not overreact...if you're still obsessing, keep the bottle of champagne very close to you! Just don't drunk dial or answer his phone calls if you're feeling like spilling all your frustrations!!
BONNE ANNEE, HAPPY NEW YEAR AND HAU'OLI MAKAHIKI HOU!!
Thursday, December 20, 2007
I'm Googleable!
What a strange feeling it is! I just started a new job in my home state since returning from France and because it is a pretty in-the-public-eye position, I've just become the first listing (and second, and third) on the Google search results after tapping in my full name.
It's scares the bloody boogers out of me! Think about...you meet a guy while hanging out with your friends -- he Googles you! You go for a job interview, they Google you! Nosy high school classmates want to know what you've been up to, they Google you! I don't know if I want even that bit of attention. If you're computer literate and can navigate the Internet search engines well, you can figure out where someone is going to be on Saturday night at 8 p.m. and with whom. Thanks to Google, Myspace, and Facebook you can even deduce what they plan to eat for lunch tomorrow. Seriously, I've done it.
One can find out any amount of information on a person if their names are listed on Google. I know. I do it all the time -- after a date on Friday night, after interviewing someone (during a former job position), and yes, when I get bored, I Google the hell out of my former friends' names.
I Google my boyfriends name every week. Only because I care about his well-being and I don't want his name to be used improperly. I'm not nosy or insecure. Really.
It's scares the bloody boogers out of me! Think about...you meet a guy while hanging out with your friends -- he Googles you! You go for a job interview, they Google you! Nosy high school classmates want to know what you've been up to, they Google you! I don't know if I want even that bit of attention. If you're computer literate and can navigate the Internet search engines well, you can figure out where someone is going to be on Saturday night at 8 p.m. and with whom. Thanks to Google, Myspace, and Facebook you can even deduce what they plan to eat for lunch tomorrow. Seriously, I've done it.
One can find out any amount of information on a person if their names are listed on Google. I know. I do it all the time -- after a date on Friday night, after interviewing someone (during a former job position), and yes, when I get bored, I Google the hell out of my former friends' names.
I Google my boyfriends name every week. Only because I care about his well-being and I don't want his name to be used improperly. I'm not nosy or insecure. Really.
Sunday, December 16, 2007
I'm connected! But, change in blog theme
Everywhere!! I have my snazzy t-mobile shadow smartphone conveniently tucked away in my purse or, rather, glued to my hand because I can't miss an email or phone call from my petitescargot; and, I was finally able to hook up a wireless router to the broadband modem set up this morning. Woo-hoo! I'm stoked.
Because I am not in France anymore, I won't be blogging as much about my "French" experience -- obviously ; however, France is and will always be pertinent to my life story. I've left behind a man that makes me feel so comfortable, intelligent and beautiful (hint: that's why we're still together), a caring family of four from Montbrison that taught me everything about what it meant to be French, from the politics to the food, and wonderful memories and experiences that I hoped to incorporate into my life -- a life that must begin anew.
I haven't decided which avenue I want to steer my blog toward: the daily journal of an island girl in a long-distance relationship with a frenchman, living on opposite ends of the world; the difficulties of returning to a life of friends and family that went on without you, or the daily accounts of supernatural occurrences in my house -- for real!
Because I am not in France anymore, I won't be blogging as much about my "French" experience -- obviously ; however, France is and will always be pertinent to my life story. I've left behind a man that makes me feel so comfortable, intelligent and beautiful (hint: that's why we're still together), a caring family of four from Montbrison that taught me everything about what it meant to be French, from the politics to the food, and wonderful memories and experiences that I hoped to incorporate into my life -- a life that must begin anew.
I haven't decided which avenue I want to steer my blog toward: the daily journal of an island girl in a long-distance relationship with a frenchman, living on opposite ends of the world; the difficulties of returning to a life of friends and family that went on without you, or the daily accounts of supernatural occurrences in my house -- for real!
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